Why???

So I'm a complete wreck right now all over again. I feel like I did back when Violet was a week old and wouldn't latch to save her life... But now for the opposite reason because she won't take a bottle anymore. I go back to work in 4 weeks and am just frustrated, worried, and sad to top it off. We've been working so hard to get this, but she just won't do it. Today I broke down in tears and I had a déjà vu back to when she was a week and a half and I tried to bottle feed her to 'supplement' her and she couldn't do it... I though back then, 'if my baby can't bottle feed, how is she EVER going to nurse?!' Well she learned and now is a chubba chubba, but none of that gives me piece of mind when I'm leaving her at daycare 4 days a week. Poor Veronica... What is she going to think?! I feel very helpless right now. I emailed our lactation consultant again for more help... I have a feeling I just need to be more patient with her since it's only been 4 days since we started this new routine Susan (the lactation lady) gave us.

Violet is asleep in my arms right now (probably worn out from all my crying). She's just the cutest happiest little thing. Poor girl is probably wondering why Matt and I are shoving silicone objects in her mouth...

On the bright side, Odie is amazing and brings calm to my storm :) He does everything like a champ :) He's also very patient with me when I'm spending time with V :)